



I have had a plan in my head of which I did not intend to speakto you until it was accomplished: now that it has failed, I mayas well mention it. I wished to enter the army, and had long beendesirous of taking the step. This, indeed, was the chief reasonfor my coming here with the prince, as he is a general in theservice. I communicated my design to him during one of our walkstogether. He disapproved of it, and it would have been actualmadness not to have listened to his reasons.